Imagine the kind of heartbreak Nicole must feel being the reason why she and her husband cannot have kids. It would definitely take a toll on both her physical and mental self to know that she is the main cause for them to not have children. However, what was she to do when her disease is something she cannot just wish away. If it was under her control, then she would have definitely made all the changed she could possibly make But, unfortunately it was not for her to decided and she obviously had to take care of herself as well.